メ Monday, February 28, 2011
...will i ever see them once again? `
...the day in the past `
Have you ever have something planned so long,
but ended you never have the chance to talk about it?
How would you ever feeling down and quiet suddenly,
while everyone around is so happily laughing?
Or why will you sometime feel like staying alone,
when you are going out with a gang of friends...? `
Today is the day, but actually i am thinking it is yesterday.
The day we met the old grannies in SecretRecipe. (3 years back then...)
i told myself i shall come back here every year,
but seems that i am one day late for this year.
Though, it is okay.
i doubt even if i came here on time every year,
i will ever met them again.
But if you asking why i still came?
Perhaps there just be some time i wanted to be alone,
and there just be something i wanted to remember... `
Funny huh? but i do kinda like the environment here.
The chair is so comfortable,
the place is clean,
and there are cakes everywhere! -yummy!-
Okayy. Now it seems like i start talking nonsense already.
i shall stop for today.
ps. ...the Pisces is gifted, and i just want to tell them Happy Birthday `
...somewhere in my memory i've lost all sense of time,
and tomorrow can never be...
...'cause yesterday is all that fill my mind `
the story told at... 1:57 PM
メ Wednesday, February 16, 2011
...hated this part of me `
...is this what everyone used to do? `
Communicate, you say?
What a joke?
Sorry. but it is not happening here... `
Okayy. now i finished my last paper on last Friday.
i can officially say this year 2 is ended now,
and the year 3 is coming on 24th March hopefully. -pray-
i think i seriously need to get rid of this habit,
have been writing and saving draft all this while.
Never have the chance to publish,
but i deleted them.
i not sure if it is just something i don't want others to read,
or maybe i just hope myself not reading it...
...whatever it is, i am trying to publish all the post i wrote now `
And last 2 days was the Valentine's Day... ...
and now i stucked here as i don't know how to continue.
It is actually something i would know,
but i just refuse to get myself to.
i don't know what more to say,
but...i just hate this part of me. (sorry chou`...)
ps. ...though, it is fine. even angels got their wicked schemes. `
It'd be so much easier if i was able to hate you,
because i always remember you, in situations like this...
...i wonder...why did we meet each other? `
the story told at... 12:26 PM
メ Thursday, February 3, 2011
...Chinese New Year BLUE ` '11
Okay. It is the first day of Chinese New Year,
but i am sorta having this CNY BLUE now.
Like it just happens every year,
since the day that i could not remember...
i wonder why but like everytime everyone around is feeling happy,
i will feel down without any reason.
And i can actually make it even bottom if i would give myself the reason,
but it is not something i will do while i still have the control.
...Oh well. Let's try snap out of it from this emo feeling ` -smile-
...the awesome-est book ever `
...i know i am still a noob on this `
You know what, i did my blood donation for the second time!
It happened only yesterday which also the CNY Eve.
i bet that is gonna be the most productive thing,
and perhaps the most meaningful one i had done for this holiday.
Like i tried to study for the upcoming exam today,
but it just did not going anywhere i want.
Say, just why people like CNY so much?
i try to figure it out but i never did,
maybe i will never understand like i am never a family person.
i can't stand people taking it as an excuse for visiting,
nor i can stand people only thought of money when it comes to CNY.
...i think CNY actually mean much than that isn't it? ` (harmony...?)
Getting like family reunion is one other thing,
but i just don't like people visiting somehow,
especially when there are kids along. -spare me-
Not to mention that i don't like kids when they are noisy,
but i feel sorry seeing them got nothing to do but sitting there.
Like they don't even know who i am and i not know who they are either.
But luckily i got Pinkie with me in room now,
else they will be standing behind me like i am still using desktop back then.
Just that i see them once every year,
but yet i know who they are, even now...
All that i know now is i am so freaking hungry! -craving-
And that is just one of the another reason that i don't like CNY.
ps. ...Happy Chinese New Year to you if you still reading `
i wonder...why did we meet each other? `
the story told at... 9:26 PM
