メ Tuesday, February 14, 2012
...几米说不如我说： 多年后，你未嫁，我未娶，那，我们结婚吧！ `
...是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步 `
一個朋友說，追她很久的那个男孩今天結婚了。
我说，你想怎么样呢？人家喜欢了你那么久都无动于衷……
她说，去参加了婚礼。新娘很漂亮，新郎也很帥，
好像第一次觉得他也蛮有魅力的，怎么当初就沒发觉呢？
她说，原本觉得自己从来沒有爱上他，
但在新娘新郎交換戒指的那一刻，她的心狠狠疼了一下。
...最难过的，不是你爱的人不爱你，而是爱你很多年的那个人，转身离去 `
当看見那个说爱你一辈子，等你一辈子的人，
給另外一個女孩子的无名指帶上戒指的时候，
你能听到的,是自己心碎的声音。
今天的主角不是你，不管她是不是灰姑娘，今天的公主都不是你。
他在全封閉訓练的时候，为了能給她打电话，
他都要走很远很远的路，去公用电话亭。
冬天飘着雪，很冷。
她却还不耐煩的说，干吗沒事终給我打电话？
她不知道他在那边已经冻的不行了。
他只是想听听她的声音。
現在，她想起這些來，脸上还是会洋溢着幸福的微笑。
然后定過神來，看着眼前这对新人……
新郎依旧是他，但是他的甜言蜜語海誓山盟，却再也不是为她所说。
(有多少人一辈子承诺爱一個人又付诸行动了呢？
当努力了好多年依然沒有结果的时候，誰还会一直等你呢？)
终于明白，我們都能勇敢的面对—— 你爱的人不爱你，
但是，谁都无力面对—— 一个爱你很久很久的人转身离去。
那种骄傲，那种幸福，荡然无存。
请珍惜身边默默爱你的人。
用心呵护和把握每一份真爱。
不要對那些真诚付出的爱意熟视无睹，
不要等突然意识到失去時才后悔莫及。
或許，当他有一天真的离开了，
你会发现，
真正离不开彼此的，
是你，
不是他……
...错过了一切的惊险与不惊险，我们还要继续错过? `
几米说:
当你喜欢我的时候，我不喜欢你,
当你爱上我的时候，我喜欢上你,
当你离开我的时候，我却爱上你,
是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步,
我们错过了诺亚方舟,错过了泰坦尼克号,
错过了一切的惊险与不惊险,我们还要继续错过……
但是，请允许我说这样自私的话，
多年后，
你若未娶，
我还未嫁，
那，
我们能不能在一起？？
...墙上静止的钟是为谁停留 是不是和我一样赖着不走？......随人去拼凑我们的故事，我懒得解释 爱怎么解释 `
the story told at... 11:26 PM
メ Friday, November 11, 2011
...it is the scorpio's month `
How long has it been?
i couldn't remember it anymore...
Pinkie was dead. (Or maybe it is me.)
From the deep depression until now,
i think i am started to get use to it.
But i still could not done much without her,
especially for the website revamp and my FYP.
Life is tough, i swear.
...the scorpio had spoke `
Say, it is the Scorpio's month again.
Which mean more people like me are born now.
Self-centered and controlling,
stubborn yet determined,
intelligent but emotional,
mystery thus puzzling...
Putting all together, we are simply dangerous...
But one fact that can not be denied,
people always love and hate us at the same time.
Like we have such a strong presence for our existence,
given such strong feeling to the people we know and we not know.
So it is not surprise if we impressed or offended someone,
when we are not notice.
Regardless who we are, what we do or how we look, -poker face-
Scorpio is passionate, and they really are.
If you have a TRUE Scorpio friend,
then you are really in luck.
(Using the word "TRUE" as i really don't take all people i know as friend.
i don't like to use "friend" to refer my friends either...)
'cause you will be laughing and crying a lot,
for all their unbelievable and unpredictable moves.
The truth is they will never show it.
But if you would have a friend who can betray the whole world for you,
that probably is HIM!
(Please keep that in mind...)
Akhem! ... ...now i am really not trying to sell myself here. -silenced-
i don't know what drive me and lead this entry to such content,
but as i always do i just wrote based on what i feel on that moment.
Oh well, maybe i will just call it a day!
...the chain of memories `
But i'd already beaten the game, Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories.
Wonder what else i can do...
...continue wishing for the day that never came. `
...a promise is a promise...
...one day it will be our light,
the light that brings us together...
...i'll be in your heart until that time comes. `
the story told at... 11:11 AM
メ Saturday, November 5, 2011
...why do people hurt each other? Why are there separations? `
The morning rain has been visiting very so often lately,
i wonder where my sunny-chan had gone?
You know, that is such a hypnotizing moment on every morning,
like i have to hypnotize myself to wake up and go for class.
i am pretty much amazed,
how does people still manage to get in time for work or school?
...it is gonna be, The 7 Wonders of Chou` `
As you can see i was so free now in blogging,
which mean i was not able to resurrect my Pinkie yet.
But life goes on no matter what, so live on! (am i talking to somebody?)
...why are we hurting each other? `
Say, i really don't like the racist people. -displeased-
Like how i don't like the politicians,
as they are so fake and always playing with the racist issues.
Not for anything but to obtain their political goals,
and fulfilling their fantastic-lunatic's dream.
But here, who i am really targeting is those who judged them as racist,
yet they don't realize themselves are turning racist too when they speak.
Like we know, one doesn't mean the whole.
If you think he is evil then it is just the matter of his,
it doesn't mean the everybody of his race is evil too, isn't it?
Instead of criticize them,
why not we try our best to correct them?
(so much of Theory X and Theory Y that i learnt...)
Now, we are living in here together,
why there is such a need to discriminate others on their differences?
(Why should we content ourselves to a single thing,
and not open up to absorb all the good from everywhere?)
...i simply don't get it. `
...when can we come to an understanding? `
Another thing is for the working boss out there,
i just don't see it how the Theory X still applicable nowadays.
Perhaps me and my friend have total different personality?
But i think my perspective is what the future needs! -shy-
Say, i can already see the generation change as i move into society.
Anyway i will leave this topic for next time,
if i still have the mood to continue it.
It is a long post for today,
so let's just give it an end.
...switched off.
...like the flowers that sway, dancing in the wind,
and like the rain enriching the earth,
this world exists throught unity, and yet...
...why do people hurt each other? Why are there separations? `
the story told at... 12:54 AM
メ Wednesday, November 2, 2011
...the time is not with me `
It has been 1 whole week now and the new adapter is NOT HERE YET!
The only reply i get is,
"Sorry sir, it will take another damn WEEK!"
(Yeah... right! like i can do anything about it.)
i just don't understand why must it be now?
When i just received a new job,
when m FYP only left like with 1 more month to due,
and try not to mention the 2 pending assignments...
i really can't do a freaking thing now.
It is impossible to explain in word,
how much i needed my dearest Pinkie.
i...just feel so helpless. -emo-
...your hug, i just can't reach it `
Day by day... time flies and nothing could have done.
Seeing the workloads are getting heavier as time left,
i know the "First Class" is getting further and further from me.
Now, i can do nothing but to sleep more for the coming weeks,
so maybe when i can start my work i don't have to sleep anymore?
(what a fantastic dream.. Hahahaa...)
i got to say, the time is not with me.
But i have not give up on myself yet.
...if Chou` can not do it, no one can! `
ps. ...just kicked the chair and walking is so painful now.
...i don't want to have to force you to smile,
i'm here to help you notice the rainbow...
...'cause i know what's in you is out there `
the story told at... 5:15 PM
メ Wednesday, October 12, 2011
...worry, is not for me `
And you ask me why i am blogging now?
Actually i do not know either.
...maybe i just feel like to blog... perhaps? `
i am getting up a bit lazy for fixing things already, -tired-
especially for those which wasn't even me to break it at the first place,
but they are just evilly concerned me.
i wonder if things would work up fine in the end?
Or rather, i hope so.
...need to say more? `
It is really not easy,
when you got so much of things to worry about take care of.
i simply dislike the term "worry" as it makes me feel weak.
However i believe the greater person have greater responsibility on him,
so i would gladly take on any challenges if it seems to happen that way.
(Now, why it suddenly sounds like a cheering entry sia?)
i was kind of demotivated when i recieved my last results.
But seeing my friends graduating one after another,
i know it is not time yet for me to slack off.
Where is the once Great-Old-Chou` had gone?
The one who is confident in everything and anything,
the one who can just change the world with a single Mind CLICK!
...oh well. i miss HIM ` (Awwwww ~ <3)
Undoubtedly, music got its magic to calm everything down.
i am actually opening this window just so i can get the music play.
It somehow can keep my tension away.
Now i got my hand full on this FYP.
It is really tough for one to write 10 thousand words all by his own, huh?
With extent of everything wrote need to be cited from somewhere else.
Guess if others can do it, then that's no way i can not.
But well, what if others can't do it either?
...then i MUST DO IT, since i am the extraordinary! `
(Like i always told myself that.)
...smile `
Okayy, i think this is it.
i'd said more than what i wanted to say.
Time to go.
...i held you in my arms, full of loneliness,
because i didn't know anything else...
...i can't reach it alone, with fragile words such as "wish" `
the story told at... 9:55 PM
メ Tuesday, August 23, 2011
...Thought it. DO it `
It has been about a month now after my last exam.
And to be honest,
i have not done much about my FYP work ever since then.
(Seriously... not much.)
Feel kind of guilty about that,
but i don't know where to start or even how should i start.
...wondering how my mates have their FYP progress now? `
...this is just what you need for the day `
Sitting in the McDonald's nearby a highway,
having my 3rd or maybe 4th cup of hot coffee.
It is a cold rainy morning and the coffee is just nice,
i do enjoying it much. -loved-
BUT... why the hell am i going out on a cold rainy day like this?!!
(i am suppose to sleep soundly like i suppose to...)
"GREAT THANKS" to the freejing,
who asked me out on this early morning,
and yet, he is late for like 30 minutes to the promised time. -growl-
Anyway i still find it hard to believe that,
i came out today just to look after his stupid car from clamping.
(And it is early in the morning some more...)
Like i always say and still saying,
it is the greatest gift he have in life that he know me.
...in fact, everyone who know chou` is gifted, i suppose ` -shy-
Oh well... enough for that.
i just thinking i should really get something written for my FYP.
Or, i should really get more articles and journals to read about?
Why can't i be more productive throughout this break?
Sigh... `
...if you think you should do it,
just stop thinking and go for it...
...'cause we might not live for tomorrow `
the story told at... 11:30 AM
メ Wednesday, August 17, 2011
...when you lose your email `
Some days ago i got my email address suspended.
It happened due to the recent hacked,
then mass spammy mails were sent from my account.
(Though, i already stopped it on the 2nd day i noticed that.)
Anyway i made my sincere apologize to the affected persons,
for thus and explained about the case happened.
But still my account was reported by someone,
and that caused my account suspended...
...now i wonder who's that? ` (不悦)
...bring me back to life `
Before i ever knew it,
i am already affected by the modern sickness.
For that night i lost my account,
i think i lost myself as well.
i was so uncomfortable and felt so unsecured,
simply can't seem to concentrate on doing anything.
And while i realised i can't sign in my MSN with that,
that is the moment i felt like... totally SOLITARY. (Even that i am not...)
But MSN simply has a "well" recovery plan to worse thing up,
for that it keeps showing me error over and over again...
But for the good side,
...i still managed to get back my account after one night. ` -thankful-
Say, after returning to my coolness self,
then i start to think about it.
A personal email is actually so much important.
Perhaps it is wrong for the others,
but in my case it is personal and security issues concerning.
(For what are the issues, i will not speak about here.)
Anyway that is all my personal experience about it,
wonder what will you be if the same thing happens to you?
But for the greatest good,
hope this will never ever happen again to any of us.
*Walked away...*
...i am about to lose my mind,
you have been gone for so long,
i am running out of time...
i need a doctor, call me a doctor...
...i need a doctor, doctor to bring me back to life `
the story told at... 10:06 PM
