If i am going to tell you i am fine,
would you actually believe that?
If you already got the answer yourself,
then stop asking me.

But be proud,
at least your friend able to write a better sentence now.


Anyway i am not writing for myself today,
or maybe it is but not the whole.
This is actually for you...
you who will understand when you did read.


...letters for you `
You know, i suppose to tell you all this today,
but it is just hard to hold my feeling when i am looking at you.
To be frank, you really make me hate you sometime,
'cause you are always the one that make me lose my cool.   - laughed -

i have no idea how much would you going to trust me,
but i know you will find out one day,
even if everyone had lied to you, there is one never.

And that is why i am not going to hide from you,
that i am really sad and quite disappointed.

(可能我真的不适合拥有希望...)   - 苦笑-ing -


But you said i should have something to say as well,
and i did seriously, before you ever thought of it.
That is all going to be inside the same red box again,
as if you can feel it.


Please do not ask me if i am going to hate you,
因为就算我真的恨到想杀了你
我也会在杀你之前 将自己杀死
as that is just the me you know all this time.



For if you still remember my word,
or if you don't then i am going to remind you again.

The promise i put in your phone,
is always valid unless you would removed it one day.

As it is not broken,
you know you can reach me whenever you called.
And i would care about nothingness,
i will be there as long i can find a way to be there.

(...任光晞...?)

Though i do hope you know what you are doing when the time comes.



i thought i can actually changed something if i tried,
but 一次 又一次 第三次 having the same thing happened.
一个人到底还可以承受多大的打击...?

But i think for the least i can prove something,
something i know all the time but just refused to believe...


Things i want will never fail to be in my hand,
even for the miracles to happen on me...
but i can never hold on the love i want `

...really when you have something, something will be lost `



And now you told me not to mind too much about it,
perhaps i could told you the same as well.

If you would never mind about it,
you won't be walking further and further, day by day.
And if you do not mind about it,
i won't be knowing things from such a way and not from you.

i would rather you told me directly,
我喜欢你 但我不爱你
also i don't feel like finding it out by myself.
You know i would listen to you whenever you want to speak.

And this is not the first time by the way,
but for you, i do hope this would be the last time...

how funny that i am feeling hard when writing it,
but it is truly what i feel like writing at the moment.
and after so much happenings,
now i got to believe my feeling never went wrong.
- feeling stupid but i am there laughing at myself -



Though that is one point of time now,
i start to doubt about you.
i am sorry to say but i seriously have no idea,
if sometime you are telling the truth...

(此终都是善变的女人...)



And i am not putting the blame on you,
but if it is that neccessry for you to walk that far away from me,
you could have just told me,  (and not facebook-ed me this time)
and you won't found my shadow beside you again.

base on the calculation now
i am afraid you are going to walk 100 meters away from me
on the 6th time i see you again
and i am serious for this one by the way


Lastly, it is the fact i just could not care less about you,
as if i could that will not be 5 years for now.
And if there could have pure friendship between boy and girl?
i am still wondering about it...


ps.
and you know what, that is actually one thing,
i don't know if i should remind you about.

Since that you seem to have forgotten,
so it is eventually keep as a secret with me as well.

i could have tell you if you asked,
but i hope you don't 'cause i don't want to hurt you.

---

For those who is 71 62 53 44 about me,
thanks for your concerns.
i won't die as if the music stay.

i know i am feeling better after tonight,
but to totally walked out from this emotional,
time is needed, i suppose.

But fear not, i will be fine.
As that is what the feeling told me about,
and it is strong.


ps. ...and now i feel like having my ring on once again `

`Cloudz メ Chou.
`13 November 1989.
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